Finally Admitting I’m Reading Less: A Confessional

So some of you might have noticed based on like, my last five wrap-ups, that I’m reading a lot less. Granted, some of this will always be me screwing around with my free time, but I’m actually screwing around even less than I did less semester — so why am I not reading as much?

The answer, dear reader, is self-love and self-care.

So the last six months have not always been the best of my life. In fact, I think second semester of junior year was really, really hard. And though I got really busy at times, I also spent a lot of time distancing myself from my life to read. Reading was how I got through bad times.

It was the perfect coping strategy for me because it didn’t involve social interaction with people at my school. And somehow, this year, social interaction has become what I want.

This has possibly been a long time coming, for several reasons:

  1. I used to be super outgoing.
  2. I tend to be outgoing until I get stressed, and then my anxiety starts translating socially.
  3. I always feel happier when I spend time with people.
  4. I am an outgoing introvert, meaning I need time to recharge but I genuinely love people.

This is happening now for slightly different reasons:

  1. I got out of a relationship this year that was taking up a lot of my social energy.
  2. Really recently [as in, yesterday], I got out of a friendship that was going down a similar path and showing early signs of emotional abuse.
  3. I have a car now, which gives me far more freedom; I used to have very constrained social time due to both of my parents’ schedules.
  4. I finally like all of my classes, which has taken down my stress.
  5. I’ve had a lot of self-realizations and gotten to know myself better.
  6. I’ve gotten far better at opening up to others and trusting others.
  7. I’ve gotten better at small talk and starting conversations.
  8. I’ve realized I’m actually fairly well-liked and somewhat well-known at my school. Don’t know why this was such a shock?
  9. I’m overall just a happier person and have learned how to figure out which relationships are toxic and which are worth keeping.

So in the midst of all this, I’ve been spending a lot more time trying to engage myself in my actual school. Not the academic side: the social side. I am trying to hang out with a lot of my grade, make new friends, learn the names of people I don’t know, and bond closer with my current friends.

And it’s been amazing.

I would still like to get back into reading a bit more and use it as a serious coping mechanism. But I will be dropping my reading goal back to four books a week and backing off on my TBRs and I am going to learn to be okay about it. I’m doing what I need for me.

What are your thoughts on this topic? Have any of you attempted the same changes? Tell me all your opinions and have a nice week!watercolor-2087454_960_720Blog | Goodreads | Twitter | Youtube


27 thoughts on “Finally Admitting I’m Reading Less: A Confessional

  1. Aww, Elise!!!! I’m glad you’re loving this transition. If you love it, I love it (well, about this, at least).

    It’s your senior year and YAYYYY for enjoying it and spending time with friends! Tbh you might not see them a lot next year, but I love how you’re making the most of it.

    Do what you need to do, and don’t feel pressured to read more! I appreciate the quality recs <333

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  2. I’m a social introvert too so I know exactly what you mean about loving ppl but needing time to recharge. I also think I know what you are mean about reading less. I’m so busy in RL At this point I think I’m the only book blogger I know that DOESN’T read lol! I only have time for audiobooks soy I’m “audiobooker” now 😊 I mostly listen to my books when driving so now that you have a car it may book for you too 😊 good luck!

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  3. omg omg omg this post made me so delighted. i am so, so, so, so happy for you! three cheers for cutting off toxic relationships this year ❤ (i cut one off this week too!)

    also, this sounds kind of like my senior year experience. ish. mixed with this year? anyway my senior year was one of the best years of my life and it sounds like it's going to be the same for you ❤ ❤ yay yay yay you deserve it!

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  4. Elise, I’m so happy for you!!!! 😆😆 I’m glad your enjoying all your classes. Don’t feel bad if you don’t get to read as much. Remember reading is a pleasure and not a job. 😃

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  5. This is… very relatable. While I’ve been reading quite a bit (for me) recently I haven’t blogged in weeks and spent less time on social media because I was more social. School started last week and I’ve been trying to chat with people more and meet some friends and stay on top of my school work so I spend less time mindlessly scrolling through social media which is GREAT. I’m also really trying to get to know the new people in my class and stuff like that. So I guess I’m happy we both are more social, I’m really happy for you!

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  6. In the beginning of the year, I also read so much because it was one of the few things I could do. And as much as I love reading, I also have other things and other goals to work with.

    So, don’t worry, read as much as you like. Reading should never feel like am obligation. Good luck with your new semester!

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  7. Aww I’m so happy things are going well for you! I’m glad you’re enjoying all your classes and that you’re less stressed and more happy 😊 I actually really relate to this post, I think I must be an outgoing introvert too – I genuinely enjoy being around people but I need a lot of ‘me’ time to recharge. And I’ve just recently started school (after being homeschooled for a very long time) so my social life has suddenly gotten one hell of a lot more active (I’ve met so many new people it’s sort of dizzying, is this what it feels like to have an actual life?? I have a life now?? What?? #Shooketh) and I don’t have as much time to read either, but I’m pretty cool with it, I’m having a good time so far 😂😂Good luck with the rest of the school year!

    Andrea @ https://spaceshipsvampiresandsecretagents.blogspot.com/

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    1. thank you so so much Andrea! I’m glad I’m not alone in this – I feel like the stereotype of introverts is so “always alone doesn’t like people” NO I LOVE PEOPLE I JUST CAN’T DO IT 24/7. and I’m glad that you’re meeting new people and building that part of your life it’s very good!! and I hope it keeps going well!!

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  8. I’m glad you took some time for yourself! I don’t want to fall out of the habit of reading so sometimes I get scared but maybe I’ll try to read more. But I’m glad you are feeling great now!

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